I'm so tired of taking the initiative with all of you. All of you who profess to be my friend / goodfriend / bestfriend / boyfriend. Who the fuck do all of you think you are. I'm tired of being the "magnanimous" one or the "parent" or the "adult" in times of "crisis". I'm tired of allowing all of you to talk me into mush and I end up apologising even though you stole my cookie. You walk around with your expectations and narcissism and a profound feeling of proudness knowing that I'm a push over when it comes to all of you. You guys call it "Val's an understanding person and she understands me".

Then who is being understanding towards me.